I am the wife of a gambler. How can you describe yourself when it will reveal that secret. I sit here often with no one to talk to about my anxiety that comes from being the one in charge and responsible for scrapping it together to make the bills and give the illusion of that everything is all right.
Monday, July 30, 2012
a weekend off
I love when the schedule does not allow for gambling, but I know that isn't long lasting. Here we are just hours from the family leaving and he is back at it. $80 in about half hour. I just want to scream. Why do I have to be the monitor of the money. I feel like making identical withdraws every day he does this. Does he feel the anxiety or is it just me. I asked him this morning to not go and to keep in mind we need to pay the mortgage. I guess the selfishness is too much. I watched hs father this weekend ruining a nice weekend due to his alcohol addiction and think to myself what did I expect that maybe that he could overcome what his father did to him. I guess the apple did not fall to far away from that tree.
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I did it. My experiment is to see if he questions me. I guess I will put it away for bills or vacation. I probably could buy a car this time next year if I keep up with him.
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